Monologuing

I have had it with people.

I work retail, and I have been working retail since May.  I really don’t complain, because I like a good challenge, and the place I work at is a pretty intense obstacle course.  I think it pretty much ruins my life, since I have no time to do anything, but I like being away from the house for 9 hours a day.

But I have had it with people.

People need to learn how to read signs, ask questions, and stop with the attitudes.  I feel like I’m the only one who gives a damn anymore, even when I really don’t give a damn anymore.

Also, if it’s extremely crowded in the mall, and you’re just strolling along, and you stop to look at the imaginary butterfly floating above your head, and I’m behind you, you’d better fucking get the fuck out of my fucking way.

I wish to spend at least one day in isolation.  I don’t want to see anyone or speak to anyone.

I will sit here and read a book, which is what everyone else should be doing on a Saturday.

There is a cat who always comes into our backyard every time my mom puts out old leftover food for birds.  I don’t know whether it’s a girl or boy, but I always see it.

Today, I saw it eating some leftover rice that was sitting on an old shopping on the iced grass in our backyard.  I quickly grabbed my camera and took a picture.

I baked cookies last night around midnight, so I decided that I’d attempt to feed the cat myself.  When I opened the door, it stared at me for a few seconds, then went back to eating the food.  I threw a piece of the cookie at it, and it got scared and ran across the ice, slipping on its way to freedom.

Maybe I’m not animal friendly.

This is regarding the last entry, in which I am way too lazy to link to:

I really don’t have anyone to stare at.  I don’t have butterflies.  I don’t know anyone who can do these things to me.

I suppose it was wishful thinking, or maybe it was a poem, or maybe I do know someone in my subconcious.  But really, the last entry means nothing.

I just want a good 2008.

I look at you, and I stare at you, and I know I made the right decision in wanting you.

I don’t want anyone else to have you.

I hope to kiss you so the butterflies will fly out of my stomach into yours.

I wish to hold your hand and count the lines on your palm.

I want to keep quiet with you.

This is for you, 2008.  I know who I want to have me.

No soda for 13 days?  That is amazing.

I have been substituting soda with iced tea, which is a good substitute, and I am drinking water like crazy.  My skin is looking much better, and you can see for yourself.

I wonder if I can actually keep this going past the new year, but I have a strong feeling that I will be drinking a lot of Dr. Pepper on New Year’s Eve if we go to Atlantic City as usual.  Still, I could substitute it with iced tea…

With Vitamin Water, XXX style.

You know how people are always like “once you stop sweets, you’ll feel more energized”?  Well, they lied.  Goodnight.

I drank Snapple Lemon Iced Tea both days instead of soda.

Anyway, I have a phone interview with The Apple Store on Monday morning. I’m excited!  I hope everything works out.

The soda thing is not hard.  It’s not hard at all.

Maybe I should stop caffeine, though.  Every Monday and Thursday, I buy a small coffee from the “U”-store because it makes me hyper during my 2D Design class.  And we all know that a hyper Hena is better than a normal Hena.  I be busting out rhymes like a black dude on top of a cop car hiding from his baby mama.

But yeah, no soda for today.  I think I will drink approximately 6 water bottles today.

I will begin with the no soda phase.  Preferably for about one month or more.

I will not have any soda today.  So far so good.

The appearance of airships in my dreams lately is very weird to me.  Here are some things they could possibly mean:

• I want to have some sort of adventure.
• I need to build an airship and perform a Noah’s Ark type exercise.
• I have a very active imagination and it will one day take over me.
• I need to play Final Fantasy again.

Clearly this is some sort of awesome virus in my brain, and there is no way I am going to get rid of it, so stfu Norton Anti-Airship.